Post # 4- Alice

Dear diary:

"Out, damned spot; out"(act v scene I line 30)There is blood on my hands. Little red dots scattered all over my hands. I can’t get rid of them no matter how many times I wash my hands. It’s as if the more I wash the more there is. Is this a sign of my sins? Am I so dammed that the Gods are punishing me with these red sins that will drive my mind crazy? I don’t know and I want to stop seeing these spots.

Diary, my husband is ignoring me again. But this time, I feel as if he does not love me anymore. His eyes are emotionless when he looks at me. And he rarely asks me for my opinions and my support. I feel so useless and unwanted. My nightmares are getting worse everyday. Now I even see Banquo, Lady Macduff and her children in my sleep. They are chanting, “ you must pay, you must pay….”

You won’t believe what I just saw. I saw their faces in front of me, laughing. There is blood all over their faces and they are pointing at me and laughing. What do I do? What do I do?

NO NO GET AWAY!

Diary you are turning red too. You are dripped in blood. Whose blood is it? Is it mine? I can’t take this anymore. I cannot stand this torment any longer. I can’t.

LEAVE ME ALONE!

Dear God release me from my sins.





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